The Bad-Ass

Pigeons are weird. First, they are dumb. Then, they’re prolific procreators. That combination, in my (non-judgemental, cough) opinion, makes them quite perverted. There is a particular pigeon I know of, who sits on the sill of the tiny window of the equally tiny washroom of my office, and s/he is definitely voyeuristic. Given that it is a unisex washroom, we shall bypass any discussion about the said pigeon’s sexual preferences. Instead, we shall learn about the day I first met this absolutely valorous, fearless and badass creature.

So, it was a fine, ordinary day when I was washing my hands with the very pink, liquid soap (hygiene must be doubled in office loo, but that’s another story for another day) after my business, I heard this faint coo. My eyes immediately shot up towards the ceiling, for I’ve had previous, nasty experiences of aviary creatures stranded on ceiling fans and tube lights and even hooks on the walls, using your shirt as their washroom. Pushing aside the mental image of becoming a loo in a loo (ooooh, looception!), I tried to wrap up quickly. Coo. Again. I would have simply ignored the cooing if I did not finally spot a pair of sharp, beady eyes looking at me through the blinds of the window. I will not lie, it spooked me a little, momentarily. Coo, coo. “Shoo!” I said. Coo, coo. It bobbed its head, but stared at me resolutely. “Shoo! Shoo!” I said again, this time flapping my arms at the bird. Coo, coo. Oh dear god, I thought, it’s mocking me! I made a striking gesture at it. It made a pecking gesture at me. That’s when I realized, it wasn’t afraid of me. It was probably too stupid to know that I could throw a wet mop at it and drench its feathers, rendering it incapable of flying, leaving it to be preyed on by a stray cat or something. While I stood contemplating the various gruesome deaths I wanted to subject it to, it stared at me unblinkingly, making faint gurgling noises. “So, you think you’re some badass, huh? I’ll teach you, you pervert... Staring in through loo windows, shameless creature!” I muttered. I wanted to keep it distracted, while I gathered some water from the tap in my cupped palm. “Take that!” I practically yelled, jerking the water towards it with all my force. It hit the glass and dripped along the length in long, morose, grimy lines. The pigeon looked at me, almost pityingly, moved a little along the length of the sill, pecked at its feet and I swear I am not making this up, slowly curved its neck and gave me a patronizing nod.

Needless to say, I left the battlefield, head hung in defeat, while my adversary stood its ground with all its pea-brained pride intact. I was completely absorbed in my own misery, walking the walk of shame back to my seat of despair. My colleague and next-desk neighbour looked at me questioningly. “Stupid pigeon on the loo window. Wouldn’t budge. Was throwing some water at it.” I tried to make the whole episode sound necessary. She raised her eyebrows. “Mm-hmm.” was all she said.

9 Kinds of People You Don’t Want As Neighbours in an Aircraft

When you are inside a pressurized metal container, flying 30,000 feet in the air you would ideally want a stress-free environment. If the already cramped leg-space and claustrophobia inducing loos weren’t enough, you have these nine gems to ruin your flight experience, if you happen to sit next to one.

1. The Spread

He’s a spread, but definitely not the smoothest one in the market. This one loves to spread out as large as possible and occupy as much area, even the part he hasn’t paid for, as he can. God be with you if you are sitting at the window and the middle seat is hosting a Spread.

2. The Newly-Married Honeymooning Couple

Talk about kebab mein haddi, only it’s your Kebab and they are the haddis. And it is exactly as annoying as the way it sounds. They will make you feel you are invading private space, even though your seat is legitimately yours. The tinkling of the wedding jewellery, which the bride has adorned in copious amounts, the coo-chi-cooing... you’ll be especially unfortunate if you spot some PDA in your peripheral vision.

3. The Human Snorlax

Yes, you’re absolutely allowed to sleep in the aircraft, but if your neighbour is a Snorlax, you’re bound to be annoyed. This one starts the nap time as soon as he seats himself and after that, his vocabulary consists of only one sound - *snore*. “Could you please move your head to the other side?” *snore*. “Please let me pass.” *snore*. “Would you like some coffee?” *snore* *snore* *snore*

4. The Returning College Stud

He’s been away from parental supervision for the first time for so long. He probably has piercings and grizzly manes of hair and beard. Speaks in a fake accent and is so full of himself that he can barely contain it. Poor you is flooded with stories of college debauchery and self-proclaimed heroism. And oh, did he mention his bike, the one that flies faster than this aircraft?

5. The Wannabe Model

She will always be surrounded by a cloud of perfumes and powders, lest the papparazi strike, you know. She will make you feel underdressed and the same time, relieved that you’re not the one caked in compact and chained in brands. And you’re in for some accented verbal abuse if you happen to accidentally touch her Gucci bag or Prada shoes or whatever.

6. The Frequent Loo User

He will use the loo about ten times in a two-hour flight. He is constantly excusing himself, climbing over you to get to the loo. And just when you think he has finally expunged his bladders and guts, he needs to go again. The washroom sign is forever occupied because of him. You start to wonder why he bothers coming back to his seat at all. Oh, of course, to annoy you!

7. The Luggage Fretter

The Loo User must have learned it from the master, for this one is forever checking the overhead luggage to ensure his hasn’t been stolen. Seriously? Luggage stolen in an aircraft? But no, he is paranoid enough for both of you. He also needs something in the likes of headphones, tablets, tissues, moisturizer and so on from his bag, every five minutes.

8. The Gossip Girls

It’s okay to gossip, we all do it, there’s nothing to be ashamed of. Only, it is acceptable in closed quarters. You don’t want to find yourself privy to the scandalous lives of some aunty or the lecherous habits of the old man you’ll never have to meet (thankfully). These chatterboxes also don’t seem to have volume control and will continuously give you mini heart attacks with every peal of shrill laughter.

9. The Curious Aunty

The most annoying aircraft neighbour ever. You’re travelling alone; she’s travelling alone, voila! You’re now the best of friends. She will ask you questions with the authority of a visa interviewer. She might also want to stuff he ghar ka khana down your throat. And then ask for compliments on her cooking. Sorry auntieji, this one’s not for you.

When I Opened My Eyes This Morning

When I opened my eyes this morning

(Most people wouldn’t call it morning)

There was a bullet in me.

So I didn’t sit up, or turn over.

I lay with my eyes open and the day

Breathed around me,

Inhaling light, exhaling shadows.

I bled beautifully, needlessly, profusely.

There was no pain. There was no wound.

I did not know where the bullet had lodged itself.

It may have been my rib-cage,

My thigh, my wrist, my brain.

They shouted, “That is art!” and clamoured for a better view.

But it wasn’t.

There was no pain. There was no wound.

Of Cakes and Candles

“Happy birthday to you!” sang the throng in the hall in whose centre I stood beaming, with the usual slight awkwardness. Despite the ‘I-don’t-know-where-to-look’ dilemma, happiness was filling me like helium fills balloons. I could almost feel myself lifting off the ground to join the red and blue and yellow ones sticking to the high ceiling. I didn’t need a wish! I had all the people I loved around me on my special day and they were here for me. They had made their way to me, squeezed me into their rapid, crowded schedules. As the singing, albeit off-key (but who cared), fizzled out, the lights around me dimmed, making the candles on the three-pound, chocolate mud cake before me spread their orange-y glow seep out. I still didn’t need a wish, but, taking a panorama around the room, I closed my eyes for a customary one anyway.
I closed my eyes and blew out the solitary candle on the cupcake on my bedside table, plunging my tiny, one-bedroom flat into complete darkness. Turning over, I pulled the covers over my head on my narrow single bed and went to sleep. The cat didn’t come back tonight either.

Of Wrongs and Rights

She felt as though her ribs had shattered
Into a million shark-teeth
That were slowly sinking
Into her ravaged heart
That someone had squeezed
Into a pulp, a bloody, messy pulp
That could be rotting away
Into a stinking bitterness
That smelled pungent, boring
Into her flaring nostrils
That made her eyes pour
Into a tear-stained pillow
That lay beneath her throbbing head.

They said what she felt was wrong

Simply because,
She didn't have the right. 

Scars Do Not Heal

Love returned had caused a funny sensation in his heart. It was the most curious of emotions; if he were to touch it, it tingled; if he were to poke it, it screamed in agony. Knowing not what to do with it, he finally fashioned from it a breathtakingly, devastatingly handsome double-edged sword. It was sharp enough to slice a strand of spiderweb into two perfect halves down the middle and shiny enough to reflect the sun one hundred  thousand times more.

Yet, there was something more wonderous than the fashioning of this magnificent sword was happening inside his heart. The place now made vacant by the disappearing pain was gradually being seduced by revenge. Revenge made him angry. Revenge made him wish others ill. He wanted the beautiful sword to bleed them, reduce them into an excruciating mess. And, it made him feel good.

So he did. Remorselessly. Unabashedly. Illogically. The sight of the flowing blood made him grin.

But soon he discovered weals, cuts and wounds on his own arms and legs, face too. He had forgotten that his sword of pain had two equally dangerous edges. Slowly his whole body was tattooed with scars from unfought battles. He, however, did not realize this until he attained a great age and children and grandchildren of his own.

His progeny, blinded by the sword's brilliance, wanted it exclusively for himself or herself. He, however, before they could make their claims, understood at last that the people he had hurt were no different from his own self. That very moment, the sword shattered into millions and millions of minuscule shards, each still as sharp and shiny as their original. The pieces, left to themselves, were scattered by unknowing winds far and wide.

Histories later, all of us have inherited those shards. All of us have used it too. They have caused us the scars we no longer want to explain.

Hey, Stupid

Slid the metal into its latch,
Closed, shut and locked
One more door. 

Checked for gaps and chinks
And sealed them in bad poetry
Mean sarcasm
And junk food, at times.

Was busy
Checking, rechecking and multichecking
Locked, relocked and multilocked doors,
Separating, hiding, shielding.

Didn't realize
That the walls were crumbling,
Whispering their demise
Into unnoticed breaths and sighs.
Walls made of still-frames
Hopes
And favourite quotes
Of memories,
Stains
And growing-up-pains;

I was sitting behind closed doors
In a room with no walls.

Of course,I looked stupid.

To and From

I run,

Mostly from things.

I run from people, lest I bump into someone
and hurt them,
Or, get hurt.

I run from responsibilities, lest they become
nothing but an anglomeration
Of burdens and liabilities.

I run from love, lest
It happened to me.

But all I wanted was to run to something,
That something being something like you.

Labour Pains

"Dad, how was I born?"

Years later, when the son had one of his own, he finally understood his father's answer - "We made you that night when we made love instead of having sex."

Listen Up, Girls!

1. Guys hate those who flirt cheaply.
So, that means girls like 'cheap flirting'? Or is this an excuse for weird jealous possessiveness? What IS 'cheap flirting' anyway?

2. Guys do cry.
Breaking news! A guy was spotted CRYING in the streets downtown! I repeat, he was CRYING!

3. It's not just the looks guys fall for, they also like girls who are not so pretty.
Thank you for giving more women body-image issues.

4. If guys care about you, they will overlook your bad traits.
And this is reassuring how? Isn't it better if the person accepts you for your good traits as well as the bad?

5. Guys love it when you smile.
Unless you are the Grinch. Thanks Mr. Obvious.

6. Guys don't like it if you talk about your ex-boyfriends.
And girls LOVE it when guys tell them about all the girls they've slept with.

7. Guys are hesitant to talk to a girl they like.
Because girls are actually Charizards in disguise and will incinerate any guy who comes near. I thought that both girls and guys are shy/awkward in the presence of the person they liked.

8. Guys don't like it when you play hard to get.
So girls, always say yes to anything guys ask you. Seriously, there would be so much lesser rapes/sexual harassment/violence against women if they just said yes to all the stalkers and lechers. Why should it matter whether or not the girl is at all interested.

9.Guys like it when you can stand up for yourself.
Wait, isn't this contradictory to the previous tip? Also, a backbone is an admirable quality in all human beings.

10. Guys want someone to listen to them.
Gee, I didn't EVER think of that.



Why do these tips at all exist? Are they attempts to break the dichotomy between young-adults of the two genders? Aren't they back firing and re-emphasizing the duality itself? Isn't this yet another way of cementing the stereotypes? Isn't it a way of saying that girls will never understand guys (and vice versa) unless they are tabulated and spoon fed into their brains? Isn't it trying to establish heterosexuality as the only acceptable norm?

Most of the points in these so-called tips can be applicable for both men and women. I don't see the reason why these should be split up into "guys want girls to know" and "girls want guys to know" categories. Everyone, irrespective of their genders like a mature, sensible, happy person. Both genders expect the other person to care about them and accept them for who they are. Everyone wants someone to listen to them, without judging. It's weird how gender-stereotypes are reinforced everyday. In the end, we all want the same thing - love.

It's a debatable issue and I too am grappling with possible answers and outcomes. Till we find them, a little sense would really be appreciated.

It's That Easy, and That Hard

Write-Club. A club for writing. Right, Left, Democratic...Whatever. Some strangers, well, maybe not-so-strangers, coming together to write for writing's sake.

Topic: Write a story with each of the following words, in 144 characters.

Words: Change, Bottle, Flavour, Wheel, Master, Left



"No change!" he told the relentless beggar. The beggar promptly pulled out a bunch of ten-rupee notes.(Characters 102)

He gazed out helpless out of the taxi window, missing one turn after another. Unfortunately he had forgotten the local vernacular for left.
(Characters 143)

They leered towards her in the dark, she seemed to be asking for it. She just gripped the broken Budweiser bottle tighter.
(Characters 123)

Suddenly, all their toothpaste tubes were missing their caps. Later they were found as wheels on their little son's toy car.
(Characters 123)

Dark, inviting eyes. Soft, smooth lips. Her heart was still racing as she stepped out of the cabin of her grammar master, face flushed.
(Characters 134)

The menacing prison guard stepped forward with the hemlock. He looked up and smiled, "Are there more than one flavour?"
(Characters 118)

The Unveiling of Venus

A leather case.

Chisels.

Rules.

Mallets.

Pencil butts.

Plaster.

Knives.

Cases.

Sandpapers.

Clink. Clink. Clob. 

4.3 inches.

34 degrees inclination.

2.8 inches radius of curvature.

5 feet elevation.


And at last, Venus was unveiled.

Money

For Everything Else

I may not have money. 

I may not have a dime, a penny, an anna to my name.

I will still own - 

My body, 

My beliefs,
My dreams,

My rights,

My self.

Because there will always be things that money can't buy.

Dream

I Have a Dream

I'm one of those notorious link-hunters and not very surprisingly, one day I found myself reading about a technique called 'lucid dreaming'. Control your dreaming, it said, by following these easy instructions.

Well, if I could control what I dreamed about, it wouldn't be even half as interesting. 

Reflect

Through the Looking Glass

What if the sky was actually a mirror and of the thousands of twinkles up there, one was the reflection of Earth?

What if a mirror wanted to see what it looked like?

What if you had never seen yourself, would you ever recognize your reflection?

What if you looked into his eyes and didn't find yourself reflect back?

Journey

Just a little Chinar leaf the tree had let gone, fell like a teardrop at their goodbye.

Over the roofs, the multicoloured heads of caps and scarves, over the houseboats and the stone bridges on the river it flew.

Urged and pushed and led away by rain, storm and hail it slipped, slid and fought its way through.

Roam it did, among men and beasts, in curious places and haunted hills, with dust and dirt, sun and breeze.

Never, neither for once nor for ever did it lie motionless, and sigh its uncountable regrets and - no!

End? What end? It knew end was far and never thought of what could, or could not, would, or would not happen... or not happen, in the end or not the end...

Years, maybe they were just moments later it fell into a cackling stream who asked -

"Where do you want to go?" 

The little Chinar leaf said, simply - 

"On."

Colours

My Name is Red

Laal. Rojo. Rot.

They all mean the same thing. But if you don't know what they are, you can never understand them. Because the hardest things to describe in the world are colours.

Have you ever tried explaining to someone what 'red' is? Yes, it's a colour. But how do you define it? It has no length, no breath, no volume, no mass or any dimension whatsoever. How can you know that 'red' is not the same as 'white' or 'black' or 'purple'? 

To a communist, red is revolution.

To an anarchist, red is violence.

To a romantic, red is love.

To a doctor, red is hemoglobin.

To a celebrity, red is the fame.

To a bull, red is wrath.

To an octopus, red is danger.

To a kid, red is his favourite crayon in the box.

To me, red is all this and more. Red is when I am alive.




P.S. My favourite colour is blue. And I HATE pink. 

Shopping

Wedding Sales

Is there special discounts for people who shop for weddings? Something like a end-of-season sale or a stock-clearance sale? With five weddings to my witness (all my cousins mysteriously decided to get married in quick annual succession), I can safely vouch that an immense load of things (necessary and not) are bought. Also, the bride-to-be's favorite part of her wedding is the shopping.

In a Big Fat Bengali wedding, you will end up shopping for some really random but obvious stuff. The respective families buy an absolute array of items for each other. Cosmetics. Clothes. Underwear (!) Toiletries. Wrist watches. Crockery. Travel bags to fit all of that in.

Honestly, the shopping really isn't half as exciting as they claim. Take for example, shopping for clothes for the bride and groom and both the families. One for the mother-in-law. One for the father-in-law. One for the auntie who is the father-in-law's sister. One for the auntie who is the mother-in-law's sister. One for the uncle who is the father-in-law's brother and another who is the mother-in-law's brother. And you're in a real soup if there happen to be multiple brothers and sisters. 

I'm not even going into the picking and choosing. Let's just say, I've spent more than enough fruitless ventures into innumerable malls, shops and kiosks to know better.

Yet I fail to grasp this strange obsession of brides-to-be with shopping. You'd think they have taken the "shop till you drop" motto too seriously. Countless hours of bickering, hankering, sweating, walking and a good few blisters later, the smiles of glee on the shoppers' faces can easily compare with the smile of a fat kid about to jump into a huge slice of mud pie cake. Well, at least there have been other (worse) times I've lost my faith on humanity.

To a New Beginning

Me and my special someone were having a bit of a dragging whiny fight over many apparent and non-apparent reasons. Now that they have been resolved, I have come up with this project  we do together where he suggests a word each day and I write a post on it, duration not yet known to either of us. I also don't know how this will work out, but I think the idea is pretty interesting; it should provoke my imagination and creativity. It will help us bridge the gap that has formed. So from tomorrow, one post on a new word each day.

Too Weird to Title

Specimen #92512

Traits:

Vision - Based on movement, rather weak.

Anger management level - Zero.

Roar - Deafening.

Social skills - Awkward.
Hmmmm, that's sounds like a T-Rex.

Oh, wait. That sounds like me too. Sigh.